"The most important relationship you can have is the one with yourself, because no matter what happens, you will always be with yourself." ~DvF

there was no way I could not steal this goodie of a picture from shin's site.

busy times with the play's premiere on saturday and the move on monday.

I just came home from my final rehearsal which went well but not too well so there is hope for the opening night.

as you might have noticed and to my own devestation I have been deleting some recent comments here, something I don't approve of at all as I believe in the right of free speech as one of the highest values of any society.

I am all for constructive criticism but thinking about it I won't let criticism get to a level where people judge on a base of smattering and complacency that is not justified for the simple fact that the comment is based on the misbelief of knowing me when really there is so much room for interpretation and casting a damning light on someone with the gap that exists between performance and audience, especially in the web.

I decided I still won't use comment moderation now but I might make use of the option of erasing comments in my sole discretion.

I think that maybe I should be ready for this kind of antagonism but I guess I'm not at this point.

or not yet.

maybe it's that I'm a little tired these days too and don't feel the need to defend myself when there are so many other decisions to be made.

these are times of change for me which besides all the excitement always comes along with a certain instability and while I would face issues like these more offensively otherwise, my focus lies elsewhere these days and I feel to just concentrate on myself rather than making explanations about who I am.

as for the relationship I have with myself:

I am not half as sure of myself as you might think I am.

I am a wholesome person though

because I think the only way of knowing who you are is exploring yourself.

I guess it is close to the buddhistic saying

'the journey is the reward'.

I might not be halfway 'there' but the 'here' is quite appealing already.