today I planned out a whole day all by myself that I looked forward to for weeks. after some hours of washing laundry, listening to music and smoking I realized that after all of the recent loud and crowded days, I'm having a hard time dealing with the friend that loneliness always was for me.

in the early evening hours I randomly hung out in the kitchen, drank martinis and couldn't have been more thrilled when a friend stopped by so we could go out to try frightening shades of red lipstick and share a bottle of the sparkly.

let it be silence or anything else;

be careful what you wish for.

you just might get it.